Time, Space, Eternity

Our awareness of time is contingent on our moving through space, our touching of checkpoints in time. Our sense of time is wrapped in our sense of physicality. The physical world binds our senses to time and its constraints.
As an example, if you place yourself in an empty room for a long period, with nothing to sit on but a comfortable chair or bed in the center, and nothing to read, view, or engage, what happens? The hours pass. Boredom sets in and time seems to drag. Time has not changed, you are now simply aware of it to a heightened degree. The situation itself is alien and uncomfortable, so you want time to pass, to free you from the situation.
Time flies when you are having fun, not when you are in isolation or working. Our sense of time depends on what we are doing. But would we ever want time to pass? Isn’t it limited? As it passes, so do we. How did we become so content in a life of doing that sends time and our lives flying by? Doesn’t that seem unnatural, or at least not what the intent of life should be? Why are we discontented when we are keenly aware of time and left to be alone with ourselves?
As the hours or days go by, the person in the room is now talking to themselves, or their concept of God, or to no one in particular. The mind tries to fill the void as they imagine old situations with different outcomes, or new situations that will never be. They imagine falsehood and not reality, as the years of training in distraction seek to remove the sense of time. They try to escape the reality of a quiet, empty room, and the moment in time in which they exist.
If madness is losing touch with reality as it is, then we are all a little mad.
The sense of time is the sense of death. Not in sensing it moving slowly, but in our ego driven thoughts of who we are, what we want to do, and the influence we want to have in the world. To remove those things is a death of the self. To sense time as it is we have to remove the ego driven idea of self. Silence is where we begin to sense eternity.
Some sense eternity on a beach staring at the open sea. Others contemplating space, or seeing themselves as a grain of sand in the universe. It is in the awareness of our smallness and the power of the great, vast existence that moves some to contemplate eternity or God. It triggers a humility that opens up the mind to look beyond ourselves.
The empty room does the same, if you persevere. If you can relinquish control of trying to hold on to your life, to your self, the empty room will allow you to see what you really are. It will first reveal the distracting programming of years, allow you to deal with it, and see the ground of your own being. It will allow you to turn inward and outward simultaneously. Inward to the being waiting when all of the distractions have ceased, and outward to the Being that was always there, as the sense of time changes, seems to distort, and then becomes a rhythm in unison with the heart and breathing. It is a sharing of being and not just thought.
All of our lives are spent choosing the thing we consider good or better over the evil or the worse. A person can do good and be considered good, while practicing evil where no eyes can see. The good may be done out of a fear of punishment, or to be accepted, or for sheer vanity, but it may never touch the heart. Another could do bad but desire the good. The empty room can teach us about our very motivations. In the empty space we are left with ourselves, so get to know ourselves intimately. All we are choosing to do is face it.
The truth of the essence of being is found in death and resurrection. In the stripping away of the false self we find a heart knowledge soaring high above any head knowledge. The truth of ourselves, the truth of our state, our motivations, the truth of the human heart. This truth leads to a sense of union with God, and births in us an intimacy with what we are intended to be, the image of God within. Like calls unto like, and only the ground of Being can interact with being. There is no high philosophical or religious movement in the world that does not teach this on some level. In Christ we find this personified, expounded upon to the highest degree, and yes, even commanded to enact.
What wilderness will you go to in order to face yourself and the temptations you have planted in your mind as part of your vain effort to stave off death?
“Unless a seed falls into the ground and dies, it remains a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.”
-John 12:24
“He who seeks to lose his life shall save it, and whosever shall lose his life will save it.”
-Mathew 10:39
“Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread.”
Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’
-Mathew 4

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